The last few weeks have been rough. For a variety of reasons, things between Dawn and I didn't work out. I would like to say that it was all her fault. I'm inclined to say that it was all of mine. The truth is, we were both unprepared for what a life with each other would be like. I miss the time spent with her. There were more happy memories than sad, and that's better than the alternative.
I've been with someone, in some way, shape or form, for almost all of my adult life. As of the beginning of June, I'll be renting an apartment for the first time, embarking on a single life. The opportunities scare me, and exhilarate me, all at once. I find myself lonely, and really, I'm not sure that that's a bad thing. Maybe this is what I need, the doorway to changing myself that I've always needed but never had. I'm not sure about that, though. I didn't exactly do a bang-up job of turning my life around while away in college. That was 12 years and more ago, though. Surely I've learned something since then. I hope.
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